Tragic Comedy

I got some disturbing news last night. A friend of mine tried to commit suicide the other day. Unfortunately since my cell phone was cut off, I did not find out until last night. Part of me is is extremely pissed at him. The other part is very sad for him. A couple of months ago that could have been me. I was contemplating suicide, but obviously did not go through with it. I had just spoken with him a few days ago about getting help. He said that he was afraid that he could not be helped. He has just gotten back on meds and I thought he was on the right track. I was wrong. I keep thinking that there was more I could have done, some way I could have helped. But I am going to take a lesson from this. I will look at all the people that his actions affected, and see how devastated we all are, and make sure that I never do that to my friends and family. It tears me up that last I heard none of his family have came to see him, but we are his family to. We love and care for him. I hope that he finds the help and peace that he needs. I hope that I can be a part of that. To all of my other friends if things ever get that bad please know that you can come to me at any time.