Tragic Comedy

That seems to be the question of the day. I never thought I would be asking it at 39. I have been looking for jobs, but when I read them I feel like I am never qualified. It has been so long since I have worked I am worried that I will forget what I have learned. On the plus side school is going well. I don’t know how people do school these days. The temptation to cheat is everywhere. I was doing research for a paper and most of the sites that popped up were for people selling papers. I hope that people will not do that. It is so not worth it. I have been there and done that and it is so not worth the worry.
I had to stop taking one of my main anxiety meds about a month ago. It has been a rough time dealing with anxiety. I really made some steps this weekend. I went to Jens brother and sister-in laws for dinner for her parents birthday. I was not sure that if i was going to be able to do it, but I pushed myself to leave the house and it went fine. We have been out every day since then. So maybe I will not need the meds. It has been a long time since I have not taken them. I have been looking for a doctor to see for prescription. Unfortunately I don’t have insurance so it has been tough to find someone. I also went to the Department of Human Services. They told me that it could take up to 90 days to get medicaid. It is a good thing that I am not freaking out.
Other than that things are going ok. My sister has been great. I am so grateful for her letting us live here. I have been applying to jobs, but have not heard anything yet. Here is hoping.